And a year passed by

Today i lighted a candy for my grandfather that passed away a year ago today.

A Picture

Just testing out a thing..

Soundtrack of my life

I guess my attechment to music really started at a young age. I would say some of it comes from my parents. When i was really young my mother used to dance with me in her arms, often to Eros Ramazzotti. So when i hear a song played by him it takes me back to my childhood. My father on the other hand plays guitar. It is one of my favourite things when he brings out his guitar on late summer nights and people gather around and sings songs. These sort of things has been going on since i was a little kid, and i think i will never get tired of it.
My mom and dad bought alot of LP records togheter when they were a couple, and when they seperated when i was around 5 years old, and my mom has said that the records was one of the hardest thing to splitt between them. I have been told they layed out all the records on the floor and they took turns picking one at a time. (Note to self: never buy records with anyone).

A song can tell a moving story by itself, but for me the song gets even more moving if it's connected with another story as well. That is a big reason why i can like soundtrack so much sometimes. Cause the movie or tv-show moved me in a way, and the soundtrack enhanced that feeling. And when i listens to those songs my mind takes me back to that story or the feeling i had watching it.

Sometimes funny things happens, when your mind makes a soundtrack by itself. This have happend to me a couple of times, and i'm speacially thinking about when a book gets a soundtrack, that sometimes doesn't fit at all. Like in the summer of 2001 when i was reading The Felllowship of The Ring while listening to Britney Spears (at that time) new album - Britney. Whenever i hear songs from that album i get vauge pictures of Frodo and Gandalf in my head, and sometimes just the feeling i had when i was reading that book.
Another example is when i read the Millenium Triology by Stieg Larsson. Almost during all the three books i was listening to A Kiss Could Be Deadly - A Kiss Could Be Deadly. So that album always make me think of Lisbeth Salander, cause she is the character you really care about and somehow gets under you skin from that book.

Songs can also remind of a certian event in your life or an era of your life. Seriously, i bet alot from my generation would be taken back in the time when we heard likes like Spice Girls, S Club 7 and other artist from the 90's. It's a funny thing how music can trigger ones memory, with both and sad emotions.

During a long time of my life i couldn't fall asleep unless i had music playing. I still need to listen to music everyday, it's just weird if i don't. I have always needed music while i'm working on something, like homework or maybe a blogpost. ;P
Some mornings i already have a song playing in my head, and i just NEED to play it. I have needs to play a certain song every now and then. And sometimes i just fall in love with a song a play it over and over again, sometimes during a couple of days in a row. Whenever i go back and listen to one of those songs it's like an old friend has showed up for a visit. You get happy and are reminded of things that made you love it so much, and maybe get back a feeling from that time in your life.

Hopefully i will fall in love over and over again with new music that i later can call great friends.

All Hallows Eve and Morfar

This last weekend it was Alla helgons dag (All Hallows Eve) here in Sweden. Just like last year and many years before that i went to the graveyard here in town where my grandparents on my fathers sides lie. For the last maybe 5 years me and my best friend go there together, and it has becoma somewhat of a tradition to do this. Cause she also has grandparents that lie there. So to begin with i met up with her and her boyfriend and then a little while later my father, my stepmother and my little sister showed up as well.

Here we are lighting candles of my stepmothers grandparents grave

My grandparents grave on my fathers side

All Hallows Eve is the best time of the year to visit the graveyards here in Sweden i think. Many people go there to light candles on the graves of loved ones that has passed away, and even though i tried to catch it on camera, it is really hard to replay the magic feeling you get from experience it in real life. This typical sea of flickering candles will always have a special place in my heart.








This year i also payed a visit to the remembrance garden because my grandfather on my mothers side passed away in the end of october and he hasn't been burried yet. So i light a candle for him in the remembrance garden, and i will probably do that from now on, cause he is gonna be burried with my grandmother, and it takes 3 hours to drive there.

Pics from the rememberance garden

It is a bit weird to have lost my last grandparent, biological at least, still have some due to my stepmother and stepfather, but it just not the same. Morfar (mor=mother, far=father) has been the only close grandparent since both my grandmothers passed away when i was about six years old and my father lost his father when he was 12. So a generation is lost in a way.

His passing was both fast and slow in a way. He had suffered from demensia for over a year, so he has been slipping away from us bit by bit during this last year, so i was somewhat prepared for this day to come, even though for the most part he was doing okay health wise. Sure he was getting old and all that comes with that.

On the sunday i heard that he had gotten pneumonia and on tuesday i went there to visit him. His breathing was really forced and you could hear the fluid in his lungs. I held his hand alot of the time i was there and he told me i had cold hands. He did talk some more, but i couldn't make any sense of it all. I went back there on wednesday and his breathing was more normal but he wasn't awake at all. I was there for a while then i went home to get dinner and pic up some stuff for my mom that she needed, cause we were gonna be there all night so he wouldn't be alone.
However when i got back he had passed in like 2 mins before i got there. My mom and uncle was at his side and they hadn't even had the time yet to tell the staff what had happend.
So in a way i feel that i was there when it happend, and i must say that it feel good that i was there earlier that day and the day before, so i somewhat got so say goodbye to him.
I also agree with my mom that this was a better way for him to go. That i didn't have to be alone. Which had could been a reality last summer when i found him passed out in his appartment after a heartattck. In my opinion this was a better way for him to leave this earth.
I gonna miss him alot, and even though this last year of his life wasn't all that great, he lived a long and happy life for what i can tell. He would have turned 86 the 2 of novemeber.


On another note this graveyeard was used in the musicvideo me and one of my friend did 3 years ago. This song is also my go to song when i have lost someone, and at the moment i think it is fitting.

Soundtrack for today

Killola - Cracks In The Armor



I just love this song and this awesome video.

Yay! The Snow has arrived!

Finally. Third time is a charm for sure. We have had snow on 2 other days during the last two weeks, but this time it has comed alot and it seems likes it's gonna stay for a while.
So i had to get out in the snow a play a little bit and take some pictures.

gifs ftw

oh.... hello.. did i fall alseep?

now i'm back from non-blogging land. i think so at least.
so, since the last time i blogged i have moved, started a new job, been without internet for almost 2 months, among other things.
okay, now i totally forgot what i was gonna write.
while i think about that, let me introduce you to this amazing kid Will Phillips:

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ah nevermind, don't remember now. will be back another time

tjingeling

Squeeeeeee!

The Snowman Edition

Since the lack of snow is depressing at this moment. I thought i would put up some pics from when we actually had snow a couple of weeks ago. I didn't make a snowman myself, but my younger siblings made one and my neighbours did a bunch of them.

One Year Later

Can you belivie that it was a year ago today that i started this blog?
Time does really fly by. As i expected i blogged alot in the beginning, and i have not blogged as often latetly. But every now and then i post something (mostly random) ;).
I started this when the Team Msn era was just beginning, and i must say i was pretty addicted to it back then. Cause i was unemployed at the time and didn't have that much else to do at the time.

soo.. my tv died on monday :( but i bought a knew one :P i'm kinda addicted to my tv.
but most of you already know that :D

This weekend i visited the graveyard, like i do every year at all hallow's eve, to light candles at my grandparents grave. It's always cosy to go there this weekend.
This is my tradition, like many others in sweden. I'm not that fond of the hyped american Halloween that some people are adapting overhere. Fine, it might be fun to dress up and have a party, but the trick or treat business just annoys me.
But people are free at doing what they want. I know that trick or treat is tradition in some countries, but i hasn't been here in sweden, i guess that's why it annoys me a bit :P

Anyway, i will share some photos and a vid from the weekend.




My sister and her cousin played with flashlights

Yay!

My favourite in the Swedish Idol made it to the the final 11 top tonight. *happy dance*
I just love her vocie and attitude soo much.

Obsession of the day

Now i'm walking around singing this song in my head wishing i could know all the moves and just dance along.

Maybe i will learn it eventually :P

Nostalgia

I think the clips are gonna speak for themself.
But i had a little tripp down memorylane tonight.














This one is in english, since i like this version better





And last but not least, my all time favorite:

Here we go again

yes i was bored again


1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.

NO CHEATING!

Will it be ok?
Faraway Cookie [Cat Davies]

How are you feeling today?
The Blank Static Screen [VersaEmerge]

How do your friends see you?
Milkshake [Goodnight Nurse]

Will you get married?
Sally's Pigeons [Cyndi Lauper]

What is your best friend’s theme song?
New York - Tokyo [Die Happy]

What is the story of your life?
Hysteria [Die Happy]

What was high school like?
The Hider [VersaEmerge]

How can you get ahead in life?
The End [Die Happy]

What is the best thing about your friends?
Admiral and Commander [Bear McCreary]

What is tonight going to be like?
It's My Own Cheating Heart That Makes Me Cry [Glasvegas]

What is in store for the remainder of this weekend?
Whisperer [VersaEmerge]

What song describes you?
All I Have [L.P.]

To describe your grandparents?
You'll Never Know [Die Happy]

How is your life going?
Don't You [Die Happy]

What song will they play at your funeral?
Gimme Sympathy [Metric]

How does the world see you?
Nowhere [L.P.]

Will you have a happy life?
Frozen Tears [Die Happy]

What do your friends really think of you?
Everything I'm Not [The Veronicas]

Do people secretly lust after you?
Moments Between Sleep [VersaEmerge]

How can I make myself happy?
Strange Love [Scarlet Sins]

What should you do with your life?
Sick Muse [Metric]

Will you ever have children?
Reborn [Scarlet Sins]

Midsommar

Freja

Grandpa Uno

Mom and Freja

HAHA! OMFG! Gossip Gays!

AWSOMENESS!
Made me laugh alot. Check out the other 3 parts as well, and also the second episode. sooo funny.

Yay!

I have finnished my math course now, just gotta have a meeting with my teacher to get the grade. I was up at 9 am this morning, along with the rest of the 5 people that was sleeping here last night. There is alot of people in town for nordic rock that is this weekend. I was doing my math test from 11 am to 7 pm today, just took small breaks to eat. My brain and energy was kinda worn out after that. Now i just have to hope that it went well.

I love how it's kinda summertime now, and that it's light outside almost everytime.
I just went outside and took these pics:

It's 2 am and the sun is on it's way up.

And the birds have started to sing now. Maybe i should sleep in a while. But i'm nocturnal now, and have 3 weeks now that i'm free before i start to work. YAY!

One Month Later

I realize that it's a while since i wrore a blogpost, so here i go.
First of all i am super tired, cause i had to get up early cause i didn't want to be asleep since a guy was supposed to come and fix some things in our house. Well around 11 am 3 guys showed up up and it was all done during less then an hour. But i was up at 8.30 am, cause that's when they started at my neighbourghs house, and i don't know how long it would take.
I am nocturnal again, and just because i knew i had to get up early today, of course i couldn't fall asleep until after 5 am last night (this morning?).
Meh, so zombiemode could be expected today.

At the moment i'm taking math level c to compliment my application to university, gonna do it during 5 weeks, so it's fulltime studies, i'm on week 4 at the moment, and so tired of at the moment. And in this chapter i'm at i need a calculator that does graphs, and my calculator doesn't have that at all. Think i need to find one that i can borrow, cause i don't wanna buy a new one since the one i have is already kinda advance (minus the graph thingy). So not motivated at working on my math at the moment. So i blong instead. XD

Oh, this weekend Alannah Myles comes to Umeå, and the show is free! So gonna go and se her, would be totally stupid to pass this opportunity, when she is here and it's for free.
This weekend my friend is moving in with us as well, she is gonna stay for about a month until she can move into her new appartment.

Was very excited for ESC this year, but as soon as the voting started it just stopped being fun, you could see pretty early on who was gonna win. Oh, well at least there was some songs that i liked this year.

Gonna end this blogpost with songs that i played alot last week.