oh well

Not sure how to start this blogpost, just feel like i need to write something about how i'm feeling at the moment. I feel like my life is on pause at the moment. my motivation to do things are zero, except consuming loads of tv-shows and movies. they take me to another world for a while, and i think my sligt addiction to it has to do with that it was what i burried myself in when i feelt really bad a couple a years ago, so it is my confort zone.
i don't know if it's the pressure of figure out what to do for the rest of my life, like what do i wanna study or work with, and the economy/job situation these days are not the brightest. and that it has been some deaths on my stepmother side of the family haven't really helped either, i think that it could have trigger things that i kinda felt was on the way. i don't like to feel this way, but i'm not sure what to do about it at this moment, but i know that it's better to talk about it with people i care about rather then just keep it to myself, cause i have already done that one time in my life, and that was not a fun period of my life. ah well, think i'm gonna figure it all out evetually, but at the moment i'm just not feeling that well in general, but some days are better then others and talking to some people helps too get distracted for a while. and it's nice too have people that are there for you.


I laughed at a pineapple today. Not many people will get why i did that, but some of you might ;)

and on that random note i will end this blogpost